if it's not obvious, im just not even interested in sharing my work anymore.

my new project is to not touch a camera for a year. maybe i should have blogged about it. maybe i dont care enough to tell other people.

maybe i am secretly plotting a huge project i can't tell anyone about.

truth of the matter is, im just not practicing right now. im concentrating on work and my family and trying to make the most of my last few months in atlanta.

for now, that will have to be enough.

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january's come and gone. no new work. well, there's new work but its all film. and its good, i'd like to think.
anyone remember the suckerpunch shoot? i'm redoing it tonight for my thesis. i should be doing it right now but im way exhausted and i just dont have it in me set up all that equipment right now. maybe once i get a grip on my shooting schedule i'll start uploading new work and working my way back to the older stuff.
in the meantime, go look up claude calhoun.
bitches.

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new work updated in january. until then, adios.
amanda
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i've been depressed but working hard
taking a photography class
working on a joel thomas witkin project. death and whatnot. the macabre. something i haven't had the pleasure of doing yet.
mostly bones. religious imagery. may post if the final work is good. it's not digital, all black and white film. some 11x14s maybe, maybe for sale. we'll see.
i surrounded myself with art this year.
postcards of american paintings, photographs of black intellectuals, angels and saints, dali (always dali), japanese prints, even some dada (hannah hoch... what a dame)
and i put up my own work on a wall, photographs from my freshman year. some of my sister, some of girls i know, the only picture i ever printed of micah.
i am very organized. my room is very neat usually. my textbooks are a bit confusing because i don't have a bookshelf to store them on, so they sit under my desk by my feet.
after the witkin shoot will be one of the atlanta urban landscape. it'll be digital, which is forgiving because i hate landscape photography. architecture, maybe is better. it's all boring to me when there are no bodies though.
painting a little. nothing nice. i bought tiny canvases though to paint flowers. i want to put flowers all over my room, to brighten up the place. something feminine.
i bought pink high heels this summer. how's that for feminine.
mostly though, i sleep. or lay in bed and think about sleep. or sit at my desk and think about sleep.
i'm taking french. it's okay. a lot of work. but not hard.
i don't quite know what to do with myself. i need a distraction.
i need something good to care about.
i found an old snapshot of myself as a tiny baby. i have tiny fat fingers and my face is all red. my godmother is holding me and looking at me like i'm very precious.
am i?
i sliced my finger open last weekend by accident; i was washing a knife and it slipped.
i only keep safety scissors in my bedroom. tiny ones. with the curved blade.
i forget to take my pills a lot.
i've been to tired. too disconnected. even know, i feel like the desk is shrinking under me, like the computer keyboard is so far away. there's a cloud in front of the screen and everything wiggles a bit. one of the meds i'm on doesn't mix well with alcohol but i've been drinking wine lately with dinner. cheap wine, nothing special. the kind that's very sweet but not carbonated.
i feel so funny.
it's confusing because i'm too depressed to do anything about it.
but the art is good. it's coming along for now.
i turned 22 last week. it wasn't special but not terrible either. i spent the day alone studying. i had milk and cake and it was nice. i guess i was too depressed to care that no one really noticed anything out of the ordinary.
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working on my thesis.
we did the shoot with clara, carie, and katie and it was SO much fun. Those girls are a riot and they produced some beautiful photos. ive never shot pinup or pinup-style before, and they just made it a total blast. im working with sunshine, mary, and perhaps even meredyth and her friend next week. And hopefully I'll get to do another shoot with before moving back to atlanta in a few weeks. He's really been great to work with. Anyway, the girls' shoots will be mostly pinup style with minimal nudity. hopefully i'll get through posting the old work so I can add their stuff soon
otherwise, ive just been bumming around my parent's house, playing rock band and enjoying the hot (hot hot hot) weather. one of my friends recently had a baby and I've had lots of fun shopping for baby clothes. i myself can't have kids so i love playing with my friends' babies. all the fun and none of the work, haha.
oh anyway. busy week ahead but hopefully i'll continue the submissions. i've gotten very little feedback but it's mostly been positive. i'm still working hard to correct technical problems, but i think in general my subject matter has been more palatable lately maybe that will change though... heh.
amanda
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